Happy 13 Months in Heaven, sweet Hannah. Mommy loves you.
I was in Carter's the other day to get Bobby a fall jacket. They have a little Lego table in the middle of the store for the kids to play with while the parents shop. Bobby was happily playing with 2 little girls.
(Caution: TRIGGER)
I hear him saying "Ellie Belles". (His sister that I am currently pregnant with)
The little girls are saying, "Eyebrows?" I said, "No, Ellie Belles. He's talking about his little sister." The little girl asks, "Do you have a baby in your belly?"
"Yes."
Then, Bobby, "I have another sister, too. Her name is Hanni."
Big smile on that sweet face.
My heart breaks.
Why does it have to be so hard sometimes? Why in all his innocence does he know that babies can die and go to Heaven?
13 Months, Hannah. I love you more than words can say.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
Remembering Our Babies
So many of you and your babies have touched my heart and my life during this past year and I will be remembering you all tonight as I light my candle. Thank you for your friendship and for sharing the lives of your babies with me. I love them all. And I love you Hannah and those two little lives I lost early on.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Pumpkins!
Bobby with all the pumpkins! Can't wait to see them all lit up at night!
Bobby's Diego Pumpkin
Hannah's Ladybug Pumpkin
Ellie's Owl Pumpkin
The little pumpkins Bobby painted. The dogs got one, too!
Hannah's Birthday & Walk
I have a lot of catching up to do! First I want to thank everyone who supported us as we honored Hannah on her birthday. It was so comforting to know that others were thinking of her as well. (Thank you Andrea, Ann, Kristie, Sarita, Crystal and Mom and Dad for the special gifts you gave us in her memory.)
It was a beautiful day out. We began by going to the store for balloons to release on the South Amboy Waterfront. We didn't know, unfortunately, that they were currently doing construction with the rip rap on the beach, but it was still a beautiful and peaceful moment to honor her.
After Bobby played on the playground for a little while, we went and had a nice lunch together. Then we went over to the bakery to get some cupcakes. I was going to bake a cake with Bobby until I got an email that Hannah's birthday week was the same week that this bakery was participating in "Cupcakes for a Cause". All of the money made on these cupcakes that week was donated to children's cancer research. I thought it was a great gift from Hannah to buy these cupcakes on her birthday, so we bought a dozen.
When we got home we had received flowers from my mom and dad.....
And these are the ones we bought for Hannah on her First Birthday in Heaven.....
My parents came for dinner and we enjoyed spending the time honoring our little angel. We looked through her baby book and her photo album and cried a little, but mostly it was a nice, peaceful day.
It seemed so appropriate that 4 days later was the SHARE Walk to Remember. It was another beautiful day to honor one special little girl.
It was a beautiful day out. We began by going to the store for balloons to release on the South Amboy Waterfront. We didn't know, unfortunately, that they were currently doing construction with the rip rap on the beach, but it was still a beautiful and peaceful moment to honor her.
Bobby colored her a Birthday card and let it go tied to his and Ellie's balloon.
Then Bobby helped Daddy let his balloon go.
Then we let mine go.
After Bobby played on the playground for a little while, we went and had a nice lunch together. Then we went over to the bakery to get some cupcakes. I was going to bake a cake with Bobby until I got an email that Hannah's birthday week was the same week that this bakery was participating in "Cupcakes for a Cause". All of the money made on these cupcakes that week was donated to children's cancer research. I thought it was a great gift from Hannah to buy these cupcakes on her birthday, so we bought a dozen.
When we got home we had received flowers from my mom and dad.....
And these are the ones we bought for Hannah on her First Birthday in Heaven.....
My parents came for dinner and we enjoyed spending the time honoring our little angel. We looked through her baby book and her photo album and cried a little, but mostly it was a nice, peaceful day.
It seemed so appropriate that 4 days later was the SHARE Walk to Remember. It was another beautiful day to honor one special little girl.
We love you and miss you, sweet girl, so much!
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
The Winners Are...
First of all, I just want to thank everyone for all the love and support. I wish I had more time to write this morning, but unfortunately I don't. Yesterday was a nice, peaceful day, however, and I appreciate you all so much. I'll be posting within the next couple of days some pictures from our day.
But without further delay, the winner is Lauren! I'm giving away a custom wooden memory box. I've also chosen 4 runner ups to receive a special prize! They are: Patty, Our Journey, Melanie and Elainna. Congrats, girls! Please just send me an email with your full name/address and I'll get these out right away! My email is klarsen17@yahoo.com.
But without further delay, the winner is Lauren! I'm giving away a custom wooden memory box. I've also chosen 4 runner ups to receive a special prize! They are: Patty, Our Journey, Melanie and Elainna. Congrats, girls! Please just send me an email with your full name/address and I'll get these out right away! My email is klarsen17@yahoo.com.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Happy Birthday, Hannah---and a present for one of you
Today is Hannah's First Birthday in Heaven. My husband took off today and we have a few things planned to do as a family followed by dinner with my parents tonight.
Today is hard already. Picturing that sweet little girl tht never got a chance. Knowing all that we, that she, will miss out on. Trying to remember she has so much more than any of that now.
A lot of my family has seemed to have forgotten her. It makes me sad. If she were here, they'd be fighting to hold her. She's not here and they don't even speak her name. Besides my parents, two aunts and a few other people, really my family support is non-existent. I'll put that aside and just hope that in their hearts she is thought of from time to time.
The support from other BLM's is amazing. Thank you to each and every one of you who posted on my FB wall or sent me an email. Thank you to my sweet friend Andrea as I know she is honoring Hannah with me. Thank you to Kristie and all the ABH girls. Thank you to Antoinette for making Hannah's Birthday an event. The list goes on when it comes to the support I receive from these women who didn't even know me this day last year that Hannah was born. You have no idea how much it means, and so, I'd like to share Hannah's Birthday present with you and have a giveaway. To enter just leave me a comment on how my daughter has affected your life in some way. I'll announce the winner(s) and the prize(s) in the morning.
Today is hard already. Picturing that sweet little girl tht never got a chance. Knowing all that we, that she, will miss out on. Trying to remember she has so much more than any of that now.
A lot of my family has seemed to have forgotten her. It makes me sad. If she were here, they'd be fighting to hold her. She's not here and they don't even speak her name. Besides my parents, two aunts and a few other people, really my family support is non-existent. I'll put that aside and just hope that in their hearts she is thought of from time to time.
The support from other BLM's is amazing. Thank you to each and every one of you who posted on my FB wall or sent me an email. Thank you to my sweet friend Andrea as I know she is honoring Hannah with me. Thank you to Kristie and all the ABH girls. Thank you to Antoinette for making Hannah's Birthday an event. The list goes on when it comes to the support I receive from these women who didn't even know me this day last year that Hannah was born. You have no idea how much it means, and so, I'd like to share Hannah's Birthday present with you and have a giveaway. To enter just leave me a comment on how my daughter has affected your life in some way. I'll announce the winner(s) and the prize(s) in the morning.
Friday, September 3, 2010
September
I can't believe it is September already. It brings on a whole new set of emotions, really. In just a few weeks, I will be staring Hannah's first birthday in the face. I have been thining about these days so much. About how it all began. About how it all ended---and began again, in a different way.
I am looking forward to the Share Memorial Walk. We walked last year in October on my 31st birthday. This year the walk falls 4 days after Hannah's 1st birthday. I am glad my husband and I are able to be involved in some way, too. It helps to be able to do something. We are donating the water and my husband will DJ the ceremony in the beginning before the walk begins.
Really, this is so frustrating. I have so much to say and just no words to use to describe it. Writers block of my emotions.
How I love you sweet girl. How I miss you.
I am looking forward to the Share Memorial Walk. We walked last year in October on my 31st birthday. This year the walk falls 4 days after Hannah's 1st birthday. I am glad my husband and I are able to be involved in some way, too. It helps to be able to do something. We are donating the water and my husband will DJ the ceremony in the beginning before the walk begins.
Really, this is so frustrating. I have so much to say and just no words to use to describe it. Writers block of my emotions.
How I love you sweet girl. How I miss you.
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