Friday, November 26, 2010
25 Days of Giveaways
I am so excited to be participating in Tina's 25 Days of Giveaways again this year. Last year it was so special to me to host my day on Hannah's 3 month Angelversary and to get to know a lot of other BLM's who I have walked this path with this last year. It begins on December 1, so head over to Tina's blog that day to see what blog to go to that day for a giveaway. My day this year is December 11. It truly does help to be able to share your baby(ies) with others during the holidays and know that they are remembered by others as well.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
14 Months
Has it really been that long?
I haven't had much of anything to say. Do I think it? Do I feel it? Yes. Can I get it out? No.
It lives inside of me. It's just so much of who I am now that to separate these emotions and pull them out would be devastating. Who knows if I even make sense. It's 4:23 am and I've been up since 2 for no good reason and my mind has just been spinning---which in turn, awakens things in my heart.
14 months ago I lost you, sweet girl. How very different I was then. How very different life was. I love you so much, Hannah.
Always.
I haven't had much of anything to say. Do I think it? Do I feel it? Yes. Can I get it out? No.
It lives inside of me. It's just so much of who I am now that to separate these emotions and pull them out would be devastating. Who knows if I even make sense. It's 4:23 am and I've been up since 2 for no good reason and my mind has just been spinning---which in turn, awakens things in my heart.
14 months ago I lost you, sweet girl. How very different I was then. How very different life was. I love you so much, Hannah.
Always.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
13 Months
Happy 13 Months in Heaven, sweet Hannah. Mommy loves you.
I was in Carter's the other day to get Bobby a fall jacket. They have a little Lego table in the middle of the store for the kids to play with while the parents shop. Bobby was happily playing with 2 little girls.
(Caution: TRIGGER)
I hear him saying "Ellie Belles". (His sister that I am currently pregnant with)
The little girls are saying, "Eyebrows?" I said, "No, Ellie Belles. He's talking about his little sister." The little girl asks, "Do you have a baby in your belly?"
"Yes."
Then, Bobby, "I have another sister, too. Her name is Hanni."
Big smile on that sweet face.
My heart breaks.
Why does it have to be so hard sometimes? Why in all his innocence does he know that babies can die and go to Heaven?
13 Months, Hannah. I love you more than words can say.
I was in Carter's the other day to get Bobby a fall jacket. They have a little Lego table in the middle of the store for the kids to play with while the parents shop. Bobby was happily playing with 2 little girls.
(Caution: TRIGGER)
I hear him saying "Ellie Belles". (His sister that I am currently pregnant with)
The little girls are saying, "Eyebrows?" I said, "No, Ellie Belles. He's talking about his little sister." The little girl asks, "Do you have a baby in your belly?"
"Yes."
Then, Bobby, "I have another sister, too. Her name is Hanni."
Big smile on that sweet face.
My heart breaks.
Why does it have to be so hard sometimes? Why in all his innocence does he know that babies can die and go to Heaven?
13 Months, Hannah. I love you more than words can say.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Remembering Our Babies
So many of you and your babies have touched my heart and my life during this past year and I will be remembering you all tonight as I light my candle. Thank you for your friendship and for sharing the lives of your babies with me. I love them all. And I love you Hannah and those two little lives I lost early on.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Pumpkins!
Bobby with all the pumpkins! Can't wait to see them all lit up at night!
Bobby's Diego Pumpkin
Hannah's Ladybug Pumpkin
Ellie's Owl Pumpkin
The little pumpkins Bobby painted. The dogs got one, too!
Hannah's Birthday & Walk
I have a lot of catching up to do! First I want to thank everyone who supported us as we honored Hannah on her birthday. It was so comforting to know that others were thinking of her as well. (Thank you Andrea, Ann, Kristie, Sarita, Crystal and Mom and Dad for the special gifts you gave us in her memory.)
It was a beautiful day out. We began by going to the store for balloons to release on the South Amboy Waterfront. We didn't know, unfortunately, that they were currently doing construction with the rip rap on the beach, but it was still a beautiful and peaceful moment to honor her.
After Bobby played on the playground for a little while, we went and had a nice lunch together. Then we went over to the bakery to get some cupcakes. I was going to bake a cake with Bobby until I got an email that Hannah's birthday week was the same week that this bakery was participating in "Cupcakes for a Cause". All of the money made on these cupcakes that week was donated to children's cancer research. I thought it was a great gift from Hannah to buy these cupcakes on her birthday, so we bought a dozen.
When we got home we had received flowers from my mom and dad.....
And these are the ones we bought for Hannah on her First Birthday in Heaven.....
My parents came for dinner and we enjoyed spending the time honoring our little angel. We looked through her baby book and her photo album and cried a little, but mostly it was a nice, peaceful day.
It seemed so appropriate that 4 days later was the SHARE Walk to Remember. It was another beautiful day to honor one special little girl.
It was a beautiful day out. We began by going to the store for balloons to release on the South Amboy Waterfront. We didn't know, unfortunately, that they were currently doing construction with the rip rap on the beach, but it was still a beautiful and peaceful moment to honor her.
Bobby colored her a Birthday card and let it go tied to his and Ellie's balloon.
Then Bobby helped Daddy let his balloon go.
Then we let mine go.
After Bobby played on the playground for a little while, we went and had a nice lunch together. Then we went over to the bakery to get some cupcakes. I was going to bake a cake with Bobby until I got an email that Hannah's birthday week was the same week that this bakery was participating in "Cupcakes for a Cause". All of the money made on these cupcakes that week was donated to children's cancer research. I thought it was a great gift from Hannah to buy these cupcakes on her birthday, so we bought a dozen.
When we got home we had received flowers from my mom and dad.....
And these are the ones we bought for Hannah on her First Birthday in Heaven.....
My parents came for dinner and we enjoyed spending the time honoring our little angel. We looked through her baby book and her photo album and cried a little, but mostly it was a nice, peaceful day.
It seemed so appropriate that 4 days later was the SHARE Walk to Remember. It was another beautiful day to honor one special little girl.
We love you and miss you, sweet girl, so much!
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
The Winners Are...
First of all, I just want to thank everyone for all the love and support. I wish I had more time to write this morning, but unfortunately I don't. Yesterday was a nice, peaceful day, however, and I appreciate you all so much. I'll be posting within the next couple of days some pictures from our day.
But without further delay, the winner is Lauren! I'm giving away a custom wooden memory box. I've also chosen 4 runner ups to receive a special prize! They are: Patty, Our Journey, Melanie and Elainna. Congrats, girls! Please just send me an email with your full name/address and I'll get these out right away! My email is klarsen17@yahoo.com.
But without further delay, the winner is Lauren! I'm giving away a custom wooden memory box. I've also chosen 4 runner ups to receive a special prize! They are: Patty, Our Journey, Melanie and Elainna. Congrats, girls! Please just send me an email with your full name/address and I'll get these out right away! My email is klarsen17@yahoo.com.
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