Thursday, July 22, 2010

10 Months and a Birthday

Yesterday marked 10 months since Hannah Katherine left us. 10 months. It's hard to believe how fast, yet how slow, the time goes all at once. Yesterday was also my best friend's birthday. She would have been 31, had she not died suddenly 9 years ago tomorrow.

You never know where life will lead you. So many times in my life I have felt like I've been on a "sure" path---the "right" path---when suddenly, the unexpected happens and throws you all off course. It was never anything so devastating as losing my daughter until 10 months ago. That was life changing, not just "path" altering. Life changing. So many times I have sat here and wondered why and searched my heart and mind with questions, finding no answers. I know someday in Heaven I will know, and my reward will be great. To feel her in my arms again. To kiss her beautiful face. To see the sunlight in her hair. To tell her I love her.

10 months. Happy 10 months, Hannah. And Happy Birthday, Erica.

12 comments:

  1. I haven't been reading blogs too much lately, but I just logged onto yours. I was writing on my own just yesterday about missing my mom, and thinking of my girls, and you won't believe this but I also read in Lamentations, chapter 3. I think what you have written here, and in the next blog post is beautiful. Definitely from your heart. I pray for you almost everyday. You and Ellie, and Bobby. love you...

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  2. Sending you and Hannah Love. Happy 10 months in heaven Hannah.

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  3. Sending love and many prayers for your family. I am asking god to put his arms right around you. I pray you know he's always near. Hoping you feel his comfort as you miss Hannah and your friend.

    love Crys

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  4. Im so sorry to hear about your friend Katy. I'm sending prayers your way! Happy 10 months Hannah! *HUGS*

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  5. Happy 10 months dear sweet Hannah!! Sending hugs to your mommy today!

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  6. Happy 10 months sweet Hannah! XO

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  7. Thinking of you and Hannah :) Happy 10 months!

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  8. Happy 10 months Hannah! and Happy Birthday Erica.....thinking of you....where does the time go?? xoxo

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  9. Hugs to you as you remember sweet Hannah & your friend, Erica. Thank the Lord we have a hope of Heaven, to see these loved ones again.

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  10. How does this much time pass? Lifting you up sweet friend!!
    xoxoxo

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  11. I have been thinking of you so much, and I owe you a huge thank you for our beautiful gifts...I plan on working on that this week...
    I am sending you so much love and lots of prayers to help you thru this difficult time and know that you are never far from my thoughts. These dates hurt, but I try to make them healing by doing something, even a post like you have done, or planting a new flower, or lighting my table of candles. U have my number, should you ever need to talk please call ok? Love, Nan xxx

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