I know I've been quiet. I have been sort of spun into a world where joy and sorrow now co-exist. Beautifully. I am thankful for that. I am thankful for the grace of God each day. I have hope. I have things to look forward to. I am not moving on, I am marching ahead---not farther from Hannah, but closer to her for Eternity.
There is still a hole in my heart. She filled that space the instant I knew she even existed and when she left, she took that with her. But I know where that treasure lies. I know for certain.
What a path it has been. Saturday marks 11 months. I can't believe it. Next month, her birthday. Her first Birthday in Heaven. And the path continues. I journey through new emotions. I journey through old ones, too.
I am richly blessed by wonderful friendships. I am so richly blessed, in ways I would not be had she not gone. I try not to think on that alternate universe where things played out as expected. Where she lived. How it would be now. How I would be complete---yet empty. Losing her has filled me, yet left me incomplete. Again, the co-mingling of joy and sorrow.
Hannah
a face I remember
when I close my eyes
dream dreams of
Heaven
a face I remember
full of beauty and grace
drove me to my knees
Hannah
a face I wish I
could gaze into her eyes
seeing hope and a
sparkle of
Heaven
I love you sweet girl.
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Praying for you as one year approaches.
ReplyDeleteThis is beautiful, a beautiful tribute to your daughter.
ReplyDeleteI love this post! "not farther from Hannah, but closer to her for Eternity." I can relate to that 100%. One day we will all be together with our little one's. Thinking of you and Hannah. ((HUGS))
ReplyDeleteThis is a beautiful post. The poem is so very sweet! Hannah is certainly proud of her mama!
ReplyDeleteSending prayers your way as Hannah's 1st Heavenly Birthday approaches. I had such a hard time in then month leading up to Bryston's. If you need anything, please dont be afraid to ask! (((HUGS)))
ReplyDeleteThis is beautiful Katy. I completely understand where you are at right now...life is really bittersweet. You love Hannah as always, but you are excited about this new baby and all that she has to bring to your life. Praying for you as you approach the one year mark..
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful post! Thinking of you and Hannah.
ReplyDeleteSending you Love. Praying for you as well. Beautiful post.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you,dear,and sweet Hannah.xoxoxo
ReplyDeleteKaty,
ReplyDeleteI've looked at this post a few times now and I wanted to leave a note. Sadly I can't put everything I am feeling into words. I just want you to know I love you and that I will always remember Hannah with you. I look forward to the getting to know her in heaven. I also look forward to so many blessing for you here.
Thinking of you HUGS
Crystal
I'll be thinking of you as you approach Hannah's birthday. It can be an emotional time and I'm sure the joy and sorrow will be continually mixed.
ReplyDeleteLove, love and more love friend...You and your sweet children are such gifts to the world and a blessing to so many.
ReplyDeleteI've had "When I finally make it home" running through my head for the last week....can't wait for the day we with all our children and loved ones.
xoxoxo
Give Luke's GF a love pat for me!
will be thinking of you next month - my daughter's bday is in two months. time has flown by...
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