13 Months

Happy 13 Months in Heaven, sweet Hannah. Mommy loves you.

I was in Carter's the other day to get Bobby a fall jacket. They have a little Lego table in the middle of the store for the kids to play with while the parents shop. Bobby was happily playing with 2 little girls.

(Caution: TRIGGER)

I hear him saying "Ellie Belles". (His sister that I am currently pregnant with)

The little girls are saying, "Eyebrows?" I said, "No, Ellie Belles. He's talking about his little sister." The little girl asks, "Do you have a baby in your belly?"

"Yes."

Then, Bobby, "I have another sister, too. Her name is Hanni."

Big smile on that sweet face.

My heart breaks.

Why does it have to be so hard sometimes? Why in all his innocence does he know that babies can die and go to Heaven?

13 Months, Hannah. I love you more than words can say.

Remembering Our Babies

So many of you and your babies have touched my heart and my life during this past year and I will be remembering you all tonight as I light my candle. Thank you for your friendship and for sharing the lives of your babies with me. I love them all. And I love you Hannah and those two little lives I lost early on.

Pumpkins!

Bobby with all the pumpkins! Can't wait to see them all lit up at night!

Bobby's Diego Pumpkin

Hannah's Ladybug Pumpkin

Ellie's Owl Pumpkin

The little pumpkins Bobby painted. The dogs got one, too!

Hannah's Birthday & Walk

I have a lot of catching up to do! First I want to thank everyone who supported us as we honored Hannah on her birthday. It was so comforting to know that others were thinking of her as well. (Thank you Andrea, Ann, Kristie, Sarita, Crystal and Mom and Dad for the special gifts you gave us in her memory.)

It was a beautiful day out. We began by going to the store for balloons to release on the South Amboy Waterfront. We didn't know, unfortunately, that they were currently doing construction with the rip rap on the beach, but it was still a beautiful and peaceful moment to honor her.

Bobby colored her a Birthday card and let it go tied to his and Ellie's balloon.

Then Bobby helped Daddy let his balloon go.

Then we let mine go.

After Bobby played on the playground for a little while, we went and had a nice lunch together. Then we went over to the bakery to get some cupcakes. I was going to bake a cake with Bobby until I got an email that Hannah's birthday week was the same week that this bakery was participating in "Cupcakes for a Cause". All of the money made on these cupcakes that week was donated to children's cancer research. I thought it was a great gift from Hannah to buy these cupcakes on her birthday, so we bought a dozen.

When we got home we had received flowers from my mom and dad.....

And these are the ones we bought for Hannah on her First Birthday in Heaven.....

My parents came for dinner and we enjoyed spending the time honoring our little angel. We looked through her baby book and her photo album and cried a little, but mostly it was a nice, peaceful day.

It seemed so appropriate that 4 days later was the SHARE Walk to Remember. It was another beautiful day to honor one special little girl.



We love you and miss you, sweet girl, so much!