Sunday, November 21, 2010

14 Months

Has it really been that long?

I haven't had much of anything to say. Do I think it? Do I feel it? Yes. Can I get it out? No.

It lives inside of me. It's just so much of who I am now that to separate these emotions and pull them out would be devastating. Who knows if I even make sense. It's 4:23 am and I've been up since 2 for no good reason and my mind has just been spinning---which in turn, awakens things in my heart.

14 months ago I lost you, sweet girl. How very different I was then. How very different life was. I love you so much, Hannah.



  1. (((Hugs))) to you. We lost our little girls on the same day. I don't know about you, but it affects me most at this point when I see a little girl about the age she is supposed to be. Two of my cousins and I were pregnant together, one month behind each other. I see pictures of their children and how adorable they are and think that my daughter should be with them...or how much she would look like them. I don't cry as much as I used to, but I do think about her. Funny thing is, our baby looks up sometimes even if there is nothing to look at. He will just stare at something. It's like his eyes are fixed...I have often wondered if my little Eden is looking over him. I know it might sound crazy, but really it's surreal when it's happening.
    Peace and God's love to you.

  2. ((((hugs))))))) I wonder if its the week of this holiday that has awoken our broken hearts a little more then usual. I feel the same. Im so sorry she isnt here with you...I dont have magic words, wish I had a magic WAND to bring her back to your arms xoxoxo

  3. Loving you friend...and giving thanks to God for the miracle of your sweet Hannah and all the lives and hearts she's touched through her precious life and yours...

  4. I hear ya..I think it is the holidays coming up..I have been feeling pretty down myself. Praying for you and sweet Hannah..Lots of love..

  5. I just want you to know I think of Hannah all the time. I wish to tell you things I can't exactly get out either. I just want you to know I'll always remember Hannah. I also want you to know I still pray for you many times a day even when I am quiet. You are far away,but not too far for prayers.

    Love and hugs

  6. Sending Love and Hugs to you and Hannah <3

  7. Your post could be my post - so many thoughts that are just there - that are making me quiet too. Know that you are not alone and I really understand what you are saying. :) Love and hugs XOXO