Monday, March 1, 2010

Sharing Positivity

The question of "what positive things have come from the loss of your baby(ies)?" is what we are asking on the Butterfly Mommies Giveaway. It's a tough one. How do empty arms and broken hearts ever come to symbolize positivity?

My daughter has blessed me in so many ways. She has given me strengthened relationships, new friendships, compassion and love. She has pulled me towards the Heavens into the arms of Jesus. She has shown me the way to Eternal life, essentially. My relationship with the Lord no longer exists solely on the surface, but deep within my heart and soul.

Hannah is a wonderful blessing.

I have been looking back a lot lately at events in my life. I've been trying to look for God in so many of them---and have suprisingly found Him. But that is no surprise at all. I was thinking about my first miscarriage. Was it God asking me to just trust His timing? I had suffered from infertility for years and was planning on going the RE route again. Was he telling me to wait? I did. Then I had Bobby. After Bobby came Hannah. The list of blessings received from her can fill an entire notebook, I am sure. But what about my rainbow, I thought. Why did I have to lose that baby too? Perhaps He is telling me not yet. It is possible. I hear you. But not yet. Not like this.

And those beautiful souls ascended to Heaven to never suffer, never cry, never hurt or feel pain. That in itself is a positive, though it causes us so much pain.

9 comments:

  1. Thinking of you and your babies, Katy. It is such a positive reminder that our babies are not suffering anymore. Painful for us most definitely. xo

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  2. I agree, its a postive but it doesnt hurt any less. *HUGS*

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  3. I can't even find words katy. Your thoughts are so stong and filled with faith. He does hear you.

    Hannahs sweet little life is a blessing to me as well.
    love C

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  4. I am finding it is hard to trust in the Lord's plan, but that is what is going to get me through the next steps of life. *huge hugs* I am praying for you.

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  5. There is absolutely no doubt that our children have brought positive things in our lives. You touched on a wonderful positive-HEAVEN. The greatest one.

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  6. I am so happy that our babies are in such a beautiful, perfect place. It makes me feel selfish for wanting her here with me sometimes.

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  7. ((hugs)). That is one positive thing that is harder for me to accept - that our babies have found ultimate happiness and comfort in the arms of our savior. But it's only because I want my babies here, in my arms. But I know there is no better place for them.

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  8. This post really spoke to me because I have felt the same way in so many ways. I do feel blessed that Aubree is in Heaven and doesn't have to feel pain or suffering. She is truly the lucky one, but I do miss her every day and wish she was here with us..

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