Tomorrow will be four months. Four months of life without Hannah. Four months of grief, heartache, tears, sadness, pain. An indescribable pain. And here I am, still in the center of it all. The only difference now is that it is not as dark in here, four months later. I have found the light.
I said to my mom and dad the other day this very thing that struck me later.
I am GLAD God chose me to be Hannah's mom. I am GLAD she is my daughter. I love my daughter very much and wouldn't trade that for anything.
He has given me peace in that. He has given me comfort. But He still hasn't taken this pain away.
I wonder when and if He ever will. I am so tired and weary of living a life where my heart is in two pieces.