I am teetering.
At a constant battle on the see-saw of grief.
I'm trying so hard. I'm praying for peace. Thoughts encroaching...receeding. Pushing them back as they hang on the outskirts. Of course I still sense them. They creep in and before the thought can fully form I push it out. Nope. Don't want to feel that right now.
I'm feeling encouraged though, too.
Up and down.
Up and down.
I really wish I could just get off.
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I wish it were that easy to just get off of this thing called grief. Thanks for the comment on my blog. I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet Hannah. Thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteThe up and down can be so weary.
ReplyDeleteThe up and downs are so frustrating *hugs*
ReplyDeleteI'm on that teeter totter too...the ups are great, the downs I have learned to let come and remember my angel. It is part of grieving and healing. I've been told that it will slow with time, the downs will be less frequent. Just wanted to let you know you are not alone. :)
ReplyDeleteSorry you are in such a confusing saddened state of mind. Try not to push those feelings aside unless you have to, or it could prove to come back harder on you (in my experience anyhow). Hugs, Nan xo
ReplyDeleteKaty,
ReplyDeleteAfter 8 long months, I still "teeter", but its not nearly as bad as it once was. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and embrace the grief when you can. That is all you can do...and PRAY and rely on your FAITH.
You are such a beautiful person and it pains me that you have to walk this journey, but I know you are going to make it. You're strong, but most of all you're FAITHFUL :)
Many Hugs Sweet Friend,
Andrea xoxo
Sending you love and hugs right now. So sorry you are feeling down. Know that i am thinking of and praying for you.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. I have just learned to lean into the grief and lean into Him. I do wish no one has to go through this. It does wear me out most days.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you tonight...
You are so right-it is such a seesaw. Or a rollercoaster. But it just doesnt seem to stop :( Grief is so unpredictable. I'm so sorry but just know we are there right with you.
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